Screw You, Wake Up, Be Awesome

I was going to post another recipe today, but instead changed my mind

Most people that have met me would say that I am one of the most confident people that they know.  I will talk to anyone about anything for any reason.  I love meeting new people.  I love trying new things.  That is just who I am.  I have met numerous friends this way – near and far (hello to those in Germany/Luxemburg/Canada and all across the US).   I have had some awesome life and career experiences because of this.  I wouldn’t change this for the world.

Deep down, I am the most insecure person that I know.  I am terrified that I am being judged every moment of every day for any reason.  I am always worried that someone won’t like me for one reason or another, that I’m not a good enough or mother or sister or daughter or friend, that people might find me gross because I was fat or because I’m still not at my goal, that my teeth aren’t straight enough or white enough, that my stretch marks and loose skin on my stomach will freak people out, and numerous other reasons.  Many of these things are not even rational, I know this, but they are all part of who I am.

While I am able to shake my feelings of insecurity while I have interactions with others, as soon as I am alone with my thoughts they come back.  Time spent in my head is not time well spent.

What can I do to get over these feelings?  Keep getting my workouts done?  Keep cooking?  Keep blogging?  Try to be a better person all around?  Sure, those might work.   I think I’m going to choose to say “Screw You, Wake Up, Be Awesome” anytime I start thinking like that.  Deep down I know better… I just need to convince myself.

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8 thoughts on “Screw You, Wake Up, Be Awesome

  1. I always smile when I receive an email notification of an update! Live for yourself, Mini Me, your Hubs, and the rest. Try not to worry about what people are thinking about you…because You are You, an awesome person!

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  2. I feel like I should share with you these two quotes which I love:

    “You’ve been provided with a perfect body to house your soul for a few brief moments in eternity. So regardless of its size, shape, color, or any imagined infirmities, you can honor the temple that houses you by eating healthfully, exercising, listening to your body’s needs, and treating it with dignity and love.” – Dr. Wayne Dyer

    “Be what you are and say what you feel, because those who will mind don’t matter and those who matter don’t mind.” – Dr. Seuss

    I am grateful of having you as a friend and you are an incredibly beautiful person, inside and out.

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    1. Yass, I love those quotes!! Thank you for sharing with me! 2015 will not only be the year of me being a badass, but a year of me accepting myself for who I am and who I can be.

      I am blessed to have people like you in my life!

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  3. Yeah, seriously, insecurity is nothing but a state of mind. Screw you, wake up, be awesome is a great way to live your life. I’ve been up and down the road of insecurity more times than I can count, and it seems like it’s a never-ending journey trying to get past it. But we need to move on. Because no matter what we think of our flaws, what we worry others think, and so on, it just doesn’t matter. Because at the end of the day, as long as you love yourself and you’re confident in what you do, then your insecurities should melt away.

    I totally get the being alone to your thoughts part too. I hate how a single thought can snowball into a mountain of doubt and self-judgement. But we’re our own worst critics. No matter what we do, we’ll never escape our thoughts. We could lose all the weight we want but there’ll always be something to pit ourselves against. It’s up to you to say none of it matters. It’s up to you to stay strong and positive. Just keep your head high and keep doing the things that make you feel happy and you’ll be fine. If only one person loves you for whatever reason then you should have no reason for insecurities.

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